African May Day: A Search for Our Roots

To Brother William Davidson, the Afro-Antillean Martyr of May 1^st

Here is the day to remember

the power and the sacrifice

of all who struggle

for the workers’ right to rest

and the right to bread

and the right to freedom

We salute you, Brother William,

a proud Black shoe maker

for your uprising

far from your Afro-Caribbean shores

You caught the fire

when working people cried starvation

the criminal lords let out innocents’ blood

You gave your life

in a war against hunger by the Thames

Chattel slavery – wage slavery

Two evils to you

under the banner of industrial slavery

To them we raise a fist of oppressed humanity

pointed toward the day

that the first child is born

in a world without chains.

Ángel L. Martínez

© 5/1/09

A May Day Celebration

Let every voice count in and after the war

The voice of the emperor really has a deaf ear

On the people

The emperor is in a cloud

As the world shouts no contamination without reparation

Beyond the hour of seven years

Between a generation and at the meantime,

you see 5000 graveyards

as the ocean flows

A motorway for gold brick holders

The barons of the bank

who suck the blood of every citizen

in this planet

It’s a hard road under the sun

You see a thousand hearts

Without a piece of mind

You see guns and swords with children

All in the name of holy greed

You see mother mother

All the children are dying

You see the master of political thriller

Bombing grandmothers grandfathers

Mothers uncles and aunts

With perfection

Outright genocide

You see the preacher letting the people on the road

To disaster

And you see a small crowd demanding

Peace now and no to war

You hear the sounds of thunder rolling

out a warning

that we need unity

the working class

happiness

togetherness

peacefulness

and jobs and not unemployment

as the holy empire forgets to look in the mirror

on this beautiful May Day celebration.

Carlos Raul Dufflar

© 5/01/09

CRAZY WEATHER

Five days ago it snowed outside

The worse storm in the last decade

Or so the TV Metman said

Don’t know that for sure, I’m afraid

We fared quite well despite the snow

Only two inches did we get

Other places got more I’m sure

But was enough to make us fret

Five days later a difference

The temperature’s extended range

Like spring the seventies are back

A great metrological change!

I don’t suppose it will last long

It’s early March, more snow will come

In Pennsylvania spring is late

We know what is the total sum!

Henry Dallimore (POW)

　

THE EARTHING SPIKE

I have recently remembered another rather amusing incident from my national service days. As you may possibly recollect from my previous narratives, I was put in charge of a mobile multi-channel radio link.

Amongst the equipment were two mains electric generators. Powered by the Volkswagen flat four engine (as used in the Beetle) they were very reliable and efficient but for one small but highly annoying fault. This was that the insulation was not quite up to standard and was capable of delivering a shot of alternating current to the unfortunate recipient unless adequately earthed.

This earthing was effected by the use of a purpose made metal spike which was connected to the chassis of the unit, in order to remain effective the soil around had to be kept moist and a special plastic container was kept filled with water to this end.

Anyway, one summer I was out on a NATO exercise with my detachment, we were encamped in a forest clearing somewhere in Northern Germany. The weather had been dry for several weeks, and, as most of Northern Germany has a sandy soil, the earth spike required constant attention.

Now we had recently acquired a new Troop Sergeant (I shan’t mention his name here). This individual was most conceited and bombastic - you now had been there, done it, bought the tee shirt, etc etc That particular day I instructed my electrician/driver to fill the plastic container and water the spike. The Sergeant immediately said not to bother and, completely ignoring my warning about possible consequences, he would see to it himself, whereupon he walked down to the generator, unbuttoned his fly and relieved himself on an earthing spike which, due to the soil condition and the dry weather, must have been charged to at least fifty volts.

I have never heard a grown man make such a shriek as the Sergeant did on that day! Strangely enough, after that he became oddly quiet and meek. I wonder why??

Henry Dallimore

Pottsville Open Writers (POW)

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Group News

Please tell us about your group.

You can send your group info to the.fwwcp@gmail.com.

GROW Group News

Grass Roots Open Writers (GROW) is a community writing and publishing group that is based in Hastings, East Sussex. We have 25 members.

We run a writing workshop in the Hastings Children's Library every Tuesday from 10-12. We use this time to take part in writing exercises, group discussions and to share our writing with others.

We run a weekly Skill-Sharing Workshop in the Roosevelt Court Lounge every Wednesday from 10-12. We use this time to share the skills and knowledge we each have. (Computer skills, DTP, Arts & Crafts, Punctuation & Grammar, Makaton, Aromatherapy, Maths, Finger Spelling and much more.)

We are starting a second weekly writing workshop in the Roosevelt Court Lounge every Friday from 2-3pm

We also arrange social gatherings, attend writing and performance events and share information about such events with each other.

The groups are run voluntarily, by the members themselves.

We have a website (www.grow.btik.com) and this is updated at least once a week. We use our website to keep our members informed about our activities as well as to showcase their writing and to build an online archive of our publications and a record of our achievements.

FUNDING

The venues we meet in are provided to us free of charge.

Our website is also provided to us free of charge, as we are a voluntary organisation.

The people who attend our groups each week make a voluntary contribution of £1. This covers the cost of ink, paper and printing of the worksheets and handouts we use in the groups and the GROW Newsletters.

We produce an annual anthology with an accompanying dvd. The cost of these are covered by selling copies to our friends and families.

Refreshments and other resources are donated to us by group members and supporters.

ORGANISATION

We have a committee with 12 members (minimum 7)

The committee meet every two months (minimum 4 times per year)

We have a constitution, which we adopted at our first AGM in 2008.

We have a bank account.

All the printing, DTP, design and maintainance of the website, books, newsletters, workshops, publicity and planning etc. are done by our members on a voluntary basis.

We apply for funding to help with the cost of hiring a minibus to enable our members to attend TheFED MiniFests.

GROW AIMS

To provide a safe and supportive environment, that helps our members to build their social skills, confidence and self-esteem, while improving their writing, reading and communication skills.

To organise writing workshops, social activities and networking events, produce our own literature and multimedia presentations.

To enable our members to find their own voice, experiment with new writing methods and explore different writing styles.

To help our members get actively involved with the planning, decision-making and running of the organisation.

To promote the organisation and publicise the work we do.

To offer training and support to help our members recognise the skills they already have, acquire new skills and to develop them further.

To assist our members to take part in social and writing activities that are organised by other local and national groups.

To encourage our members to help and support each other, and also to share their skills, knowledge and expertise when they feel ready and able to do so.

BLOG AUTHORS

If you would like to be an author for this BLOG please email the.fwwcp@gmail.com to be added to the list.

We can have up to 100 authors.

The Light Within, The Journey Without

She searched deep

Within the darkest shadows

Feeling the velvety form of nothingness

Becoming aware

Becoming blind

She walked through fallen forests

Where memory of stardust still lingered

And her search took on momentum

Creating the smallest of vibrations

The rhythm of sound

And she could hear her footsteps

And the universe dancing in her wake

She smiled and turned as love overtook her heart

Light illuminating darkness

In the primal dawn of consciousness

And eternity unlocked the doors of time

Alpha

Omega

The universal gift of life

The Light Within

The Journey Without.

(C) Lucia Birch
(Stevenage Survivors)

FROST

Shoulder to shoulder, stood

blades of sharpened silver

shrouded in the swirling mist

silently waiting for the morning

sun; to soften them.

(C) Jan Hedger (GROW)

Too Much Pain

Too much pain, but who is willing to help
It's hard for us to get some medical attention around here

Too much pain, but we can only do so much
Getting denied because we are people of color

Too much neglect, makes me forget about
the physical pain and realize that it doesn't hurt as much
as the emotional pain that they are causing

All I hear is whites only
Where ever I go whites only
Shouldn't we all be equal, not just whites only


Finally a place to be..........


Oh No, it's too much for me, I cant afford this
I have no coverage, And the nurse is not willing to help
because we are garbage

Too much pain, I guess I'm going to keep feeling
To much money, that we are going to be needing

Too much pain my parents are going through,
seeing me sick and knowing nothing can be done

Too much pain it's making them suffer
All because I have no card with a couple of stupid numbers

Too much pain, my head hurts,
my stomach hurts, I have a stuffy nose
Too much pain, but what can we do
Too much pain and no one is willing to help

Copyright Zaidmary Ortiz

MY CORNER

I have a corner in the yard

In winter it is always warm

If sunshine really is so hard

I sit out on my little form

The walls are tall, no breeze is there

At noon the shadows will encroach

Which really doesn’t seem quite fair

‘cos evening still has to approach

Although the shady garden’s white

And old leaves too are lying there

The frost that’s come the previous night

Other conditions might infer

December’s threat it does not mean

Indoors I have to spend my time

My little corner that’s so clean

Means I can sit, not spend a dime!

© Henry Dallimore

(GROW)

Words in Imagination by Jan Hedger

Book Review of:

Words in Imagination by Jan Hedger

Published by Rossendale Books £5.99

ISBN 978-1-906801-03-8

46pp (pbk)

This is a delightful little book to look at and dip into, with a nicely designed front cover and a lovely friendly typeface!

The author, Jan Hedger, is obviously adept at seeing life through the eyes of a child, and many of these poems are written for children, too. In fact, many of them reminded me strongly of a time long past, in the land of A.A. Milne and Jemima Puddleduck, with their innocent rural themes. "Wonderment" for example:

"Do you believe in fairies

with flowers in their hair

wings as soft as feathers

a song as light as air?"

But today's kids would find much that is familiar in their world, with poems like "A Red Kite" and "Drifting Off, Into My World". Jan has great fun with words and rhyme, and her enthusiasm and passion for writing this kind of poetry shines through. Sometimes I felt that this could be reined in and tightened up a bit; for example, I don't think the last verse of "Captured" is in any way necessary, as "It is the place that has captured you" seem a much stronger ending.

Mostly, though, the poems are a delight to read, and there are one or two that indicate a more thoughtful reflective vein.

Lynne Clayton

ONE THING I CAN DO FOR THE FED

What can I do for the Fed? Write when in the mood. Occasionally put something about them in the magazine I edit and founded; just as I do other organisations. I really don't know too much about them as I am not a writer that normally attends their workshops, but this doesn't stop me from offering this benefit to them.

So, if they wish this - as with others, I will wait information from them; then if the time is right, the theme, and if space allows, it will go in.

Like others, Ebb & Flow relies on gift donations to help it continue - it does not have access to grants as The Fed and other organisations would - it is individually run - with a named Patron, and most of the funds come from my own pocket.

Being who I am, I continue due to the fact I know others benefit and enjoy as I note from feedback. Also - I enjoy. So, I hope my offer of help in around about way will be of use to TheFED.

©19.11.08 Josie Lawson
(GROW)

The Arrangement

His fingers caught in the tresses of her hair,

As he whirled her - high in the dance.

His dark, deep set eyes held possessiveness.

The intensity of her eyes flashed defiance.

He would not be denied;

She would not be promised.

As the music lifted, his arm

Tightened around her belted waist,

Slender - against the breadth of him.

The light from the all-consuming fire

Reflected lambent upon her wilful face,

But it did not diffuse the anger there.

Dust swirled in the charged air as the beat

Intensified its pace; the notes hypnotic.

The deftness of their feet traced a path

Of pre-determined destiny.

Palm to palm, the onlookers encircled the pair,

Knowledge and tradition uniting their eyes,

In the taming of the child.

The strings of the fiddle pulsated

In response to the travelling bow

Enrapturing, capturing the girl with its spell.

As the sweat emerged in silver beads,

Upon his brow, he pulled her in

To the aroma of his manly scent.

Intoxicating her senses, quickening the blood

That flowed through the chambers of her heart;

Infusing her cheeks with a blush of softness.

His rough hands – instinctual - felt the burning passion,

That mirrored his bodies own needs and desires.

Detecting the change, he halted in his step,

And met the full force of a woman’s eyes.

Coquettish - she loosened the red cotton twill

He wore knotted about his neck - tantalisingly,

Feeling its coarseness - running through her,

Soft velvety fingertips. She was his.

The music slowed - became still - as the evening’s breath.

As one body, the onlookers retreated to their beds;

Consigning the embers to shift and settle within the dying fire.

(C) Jan Hedger

(GROW)

Book Review of:

Nature: an anthology of poems by Grass Roots Open Writers 2008

24pp (A5 booklet)

This is the first anthology from a very recently formed group, and should be the inspiration for all Fed-type writing groups! It has a beautifully designed front cover, and the simple formula of a poem per page with its own decorative border makes it an attractive book to handle and peruse.

The book opens with a clear explanation of what GROW is all about:

”Grass Roots Open Writers is a community writing and publishing group, that particularly welcomes people who need to develop confidence in expressing themselves.”

And Ashley Jordan’s poem, “Grass Roots”, explains in a lovely way the reason for their name:

“Grass Roots,

Reaching down

Into nourishment

Finding their place

Securing their space

Upon the earth”

The theme of the anthology, “Nature” is, of course, a very wide one, and there is a good range of responses, and the last poem is a two-writer collaboration! One of my personal favourites, though, was by Stephen Taylor, a wonderfully lyrical and assured poem, I thought:

“As I pass into autumn,

With its shades,

Like the moonlight

The coldness of the heart, like the winter

I long for another summer,

Like a lover waits for an embrace

To feel the warmth

Of its refreshing breath

I wait in hope, saying

I don’t want to be alone tonight”

The prevailing mood of this collection is celebratory and optimistic, Spring-like in its hope. GROW sounds like a very supportive and friendly group, and I wish it long-lasting success so I can look forward to reading many more anthologies!

By Lynne Clayton

Nov.’08

THE JUNCTION

Little Bo Peep has lost her junction

It never was thus so

For she an Excise Man once was

Many years ago.

The gentlemen from Hawkhurst came

Their booty to retrieve

Armed with cutlass, they killed Bo Peep

And others who did deceive.

Later on the railway came

A tunnel did they dig

By the portal, two lines joined

Although not very big.

A nearby inn was called Bo Peep

Where the navvies used to drink

It’s strange how unrelated things

Finish up with a common link!

(C) Henry Dallimore

(GROW)

Country Walks 17/11/08

Morning dew the suns rays awaken nature and all it’s splendour. The sounds of nature all around awakens me to a harmonious peace as if today is the best it can be.

The morning ritual to cleanse, bathe, dress and stretch are all part of my preparation as I relax into my favourite pastime. The suns light opens up my heart as I peer outside to look at the morning euphoria and engage in limbering, stretching and set about on my way.

The outside door a passage way to Jerusalem at least like Blake said “ In Englands green and pleasant land”

A community estate all noise and traffic, kids running to school, Mums pushing prams and me engaged in the ambience of it all.

As I leave the estate the narrow lines of trees show my pathway to a picturesque winter scene as seen by those landscape paintings of Constable and his ilk. As I amble my way through those lush pastures of my hometown cycle way like a thoroughfare through an ancient woodland. To feel and breathe that essence of nature as I stand in awe and breathe the cool winter air.

The passage way ends to the modern construction that is the nations highway. Concrete pillars, graffitied subways signs of dejection, depression, anger and rage. As vehicles of all shapes and sizes charge away, choking me, suffocating the air that I breathe and giving me that horrible nauseous feeling like I really want to vomit in my favourite walk.

Further I travel to escape the pollution to divert myself away from this terrible place. At last a sign to another place which takes me away from the main highway onto a safe, secure, narrow country lane to feel that pleasant warm glow of nature again. Allowing my levels to destress themselves as the occasional motorist passes me by to breathe and collect my thoughts.

With a golf range on one side and a cows field on the other. I feel part of a ever changing land where developers seem to have the upper hand. An aeroplane passes over to remind me where |I am.

The village cricket green can now be seen as I walk toward a stately home adorned by the pleasant setting of leafy lanes and still life.

The cricket green a sporting venue for the inhabitants is planted to convey the peaceful tranquil setting that is the centre of the village. As I return home down open lanes to once again face the community that is my home.

(c) Paul Evans

The day of the purple dawn

Oceans roared and rid themselves
Of rubbish and debris
Moon slipped through a hole in the sky
To join her secret terrainean lover
The dog who was lost in space got homesick and
Did what all dogs do: Returned home.
And the day of the purple dawn began
Forgotten Native people migrated
To the country's sunny
Northwest border; then the tribes
And newly-forged alliances
Zig-zagged to the southeast—
They numbered in the millions
And gathered flowery cohorts as they went.
Descendents of African peoples
Vacated forty major cities and took control of
Forty parcels of farmland set aside
For their post-enslavement ancestors.
Mainstream men and women, voiceless
And dutiful,
Cast off their lower-Euro status and
Re-affirmed their civil rights.
The day of the purple dawn
Promised peace
Promoted walking
Praised carrots and beets and
Blessed all love-based marriages
The day of the purple dawn
Punished greed and
Pelted hate-words with logic,
Disdain, reason, and rebuke
The day of the purple dawn
Lasted less than one minute and was
Spread over 340 years.
On the second minute of the
Three hundred and
Forty-first year,
Oceans, embarrassed by
The return of stubs and
Bottles, went calm.
Moon returned. Round with child.
Some hope there.
The dog took off with his favorite toy
The Natives rode pickups or sedans
Back to reservations, pueblos, or casinos
Non-native sympathizers relaxed in flower-filled
Coffee shops in the lower levels of
Granite skyscrapers, black-burying
Memories of the Great Cross-Country,
Trans-cultured migration
African offshoots went back to the
Corners and walls of the Inner City
The Euro-types stayed in the pre-dawn 'burbs
Where their shot at clarity grew blurry with time,
A new war began in a tiny country whose
Leader had once told someone who told someone
That he could whip our butts if he wanted to
Greed kept the dollar strong
Truth was monitored
Hatewords divided humans and multiplied profits
Governments subsidized beef and
Beat out backyard vegetables
The gay man pretended again to be
His partner's first cousin
Students, parents, and old people
Gave and received different versions
Of what the day had been like,
The day of the purple dawn was over.

(c) Bernice Mbadugha

Saludos a mis hermanas y mis hermanos en Fed UK

Dear Lucia

As you requested, Carlos and I would like to share some words for the Saturday minifest in greetings from The Bread is Rising Poetry Collective. Because we have just survived the most hotly contested election we can ever remember, we can say that the next step is to do as we are doing with the Fed - rebuilding our groups and organising our movements for real change. With that in mind, The Collective and our sister organisation (and Fed members) Precious Promise Arts Circle will continue to organise, organise, organise!

Saludos a mis hermanas y mis hermanos en Fed UK

On this beautiful day we will send you
a bucket of red roses
to embrace our affection and joy and friendship
each and every day
a poetic doo wop we will survive the cloudy winter
This a rose will always grow
even on the distant plane that unites us
Our dreams above our love of humanity
with a word song
of peace and not war on earth
between our marching for universal love
in exchange for a kiss is just a kiss
We shall see each other sooner or later
At the spirit of The Bread is Rising Poetry Collective
keeps on marching
un amor puro

Copyright Carlos Raul Dufflar
09-11-2008

Fed 2008: The Resurrection Poem

May our days together be many
May our unity always be strong
Just like our songs
May the peace for which we have so long struggled
erupt in festivals of words
May we as sisters and brothers come always together in love
May our words refresh as the rain replenishes
And to speak of words
more profound than the size on the page can ever show
May we always remember the final word:
organise!

Copyright 2008 Angel L. Martinez

Africa is Calling

If I tell you this would you laugh at me?
Would you think I was crazy?
Would you walk away?

Africa is calling me
She speaks to my spirit at night
In dreams I travel to her
Imagining her quiet land, the flow of the people, brightly colored boubous
A young Irish woman, a white woman, I bathe in her waters

Africa is calling
The music soars through me
Waking me in the morning
And lulling me to sleep at night

Africa - I want to bury my feet in your hot sand
I want to journey over the Niger
I want to dance with you under the stars
To breathe you

Africa - The heat, the dust, the poverty, the suffering
All of this I will see too

Oneday I will put my feet on your soil - Africa
I will feel you, I will step inside you
And I will be enthralled by the colors, the sounds,
The spirit of the people
And I will see too the harsh reality of peoples lives, the impact of
colonialism
What have my people done to you?
The corruption, the pain, the violence
I will hold it all in my heart

Africa is calling
She spells out her name over my eyes, my hands
Rushing a wave over my entire body
I am drawn in, entranced

Whispering to me over the warm summer breeze
Whispering to my heart as a lover
Dreaming of his beauty
Dreaming of his eyes following mine
Dreaming of the sun on the warm desert earth
Dreaming Africa

Copyright Dorothy Johnson-Laird

A CROWDED PLACE

Everywhere is so crowded so it seems

World population is expanding so fast

Where will we all be standing

In Year three thousand?

Such problems always pose questions which I ask

The worse place for overcrowding seems to be

Somewhere called

Poverty

Although I do not have the faintest idea

As to it’s location.

But here’s the rub

There is somewhere where jobs are always available

Again I do not know where this place is

But as far as I can remember

It is called

Jeopardy.

© Henry Dallimore

(GROW)

Looking 4 the only sister I ever had MONA MUHAMBIYA

INTRODUCTION

There was always war going on in my country people were fighting all the time and it seems like a normal thing because there was nothing people can do, we all got used to it.

My name is Nora Muhambiya I am the first born at home, we are the family of four. It’s me and my Mother Garuna, my father Welli and my little sister Mona she is 7 years old and I am 15. My family is always together we are never apart. My mother always says that we might not have everything that we wanted but if we have one another that is the best wealth any one can ever wish for, so my little sister was my friend. We played together all the time in any case there was no one we could play with because of the war that was happening. My mother was a house wife but she loved doing art work and beading as for my father he was working in a farm and we were going to school.

CHAPTER ONE: NIGHTMARE DAY

It was a very beautiful day the sun was shining, for a while we were happy enjoying the day. The day was peaceful the was no noise of guns shots, people were all sitting outside, chatting to neighbors.

Suddenly we had this huge helicopter noise and people were screaming and shouting, then the was chaos every where the were bombs thrown at us, the soldiers were shooing at people. My mother was shot immediately in the stomach, my father was trying to reach out to her, and then he was shot in the left leg. I was so confused I did not know what to do my parents were shouting for us to run and find some place to hide but the was no place where we can hide to, my sister would not let go of my mother because she was bleeding badly in the stomach and she was begging us to run. So when we finally ran the were shootings and I lost my sister.

I tried to look out for her but bombs and gun shot were too powerful and people would not let me go. And that was the last time I saw my mother and my father and my little sister Mona.

CHAPTER TWO: LIFE CHANGED

The next morning all those who survived went out to search for our loved ones, but the was nothing that we could see because many people were burnt and it was too horrible and painful to look. So we all decided to leave the country.

We went days barefoot with no food we tried hiking cars but the was no luck, then suddenly this huge truck gave us a hike. We all wanted to go to some other parts of Africa but others were hading to America and that is were I also landed.

CHAPTER THREE: 10 YEARS IN OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD

My life changed completely that day, it my first time being separated from my family, from Mona. I had no one but my self, it was so hard because I could not speak English I only new my home language Xhosa. Everyday I would think of my sister if she had survived or not and what had happen to her.

As days got by I manage a bit I started to learn to speak English and got my self a job. Things were getting better by the day, I was starting to come to terms that my parents were dead and It would never be the same again. Strangely I would have these weird dreams about my mother calling my sister’s name and saying “she needs you go and look for her”. I used to ignore this dream but it would come back every night.

CHAPTER FOUR: DECIDING WHAT TO DO

I had already got used to this part of the chapter of my life and accepted that its all up to the end, but then I met this charming American guy Shaun, he was very supportive and very loving. It was my birthday I was turning 25 and Shaun had birthday plans for me, then surprisingly he proposed and I accepted his proposal.

I was very happy everything was a dream coming true, but now my dream about my mother was becoming too serious even if I was just taking a nap. So I decide to consult my fiancé about this so we decide that I should go back to Africa and search for Mona.

CHAPTER FIVE: SEARCH

I did not know where to start but I decided to back to Rwanda and find out if they might know anything about people who survived and what happen to kids that were homeless on 12 may 1970. The search for Mona was important to me because I also wanted someone to give me my blessing in my wedding and accept my husband to our part of family and most all to reunite with my only sister.

I was told that all the kids and women who had survived were deported to Zambia. So I went to Zambia booked my self to a hotel I did not know how long my search was going to be.

CHAPTER SIX: A HELPER WITH A FRIENDLY SMILE

In the hotel I was introduced to this lady her name Mandy she was a cleaner of the hotel she was maybe 15-17 years old and she was only going to cleaning my room. Mandy could not speak properly English so we did not have much conversation when she came to work in my room.

She was lovely she would greet with a smile, she adored my shoes every time she would look at them. This was fun because my sister would love to wear my shoes even though they were too big for her. So one day I ask her to try one of my shoe, the shoe was red with a diamond on top of it, the shoe was present from my fiancé, so she tried it on and the shoe fitted her perfectly.

A week after Mandy tried on my shoe the shoe went missing, so I got so furious because I trusted the girl so I went to the manager and reported this to him. Mandy was called in and she was asking about the shoe, then she knew nothing about the missing shoe, she was fired immediately.

CHAPTER SEVEN: MONA’S FRIEND ELIZABETH

The next day I was invited to the launch of the stop women abuse function every one was going to be there. I made a phone to Shaun telling about the function and that I still had no luck finding Mona and that the girl who used to come and clean my room stole the shoe that he bought for our first valentines and she got fired.

Apparently there was Mona’s friend in the sitting room and she was listening to my conversation with Shaun. After the phone call she came to me and told I that Mandy did not take my shoes and now she lost her job because of me and that she was saving the money to go varsity. When Elizabeth was talking to me I was busy playing with my bead necklace that my mother made for me and Mona, the necklace had Mona’s name and mine “Nora and Mona” mine was blue and white and Mona necklace was red and black. she ask me if the necklace was mine and I said yes and she just said “oh that’s strange”, then she said that all I wanted to say that Mandy did not take your shoe she is a very good person who has struggle a lot to get this job.

CHAPTER EIGHT: WEALTH IS NOT IMPORTANT THAN FAMILY

That night I prepare to go to the function and then deciding to go back to Chicago for my wedding preparations, because I was not succeeding in finding Mona. I went to the function when I got there Ms Dervan the assistant manager of the hotel was also there but she seems surprised to me there, after an while I saw her wearing the exact same shoes that went missing in the Hotel I knew my shoes very well so I ask if she was the one who took the shoes, at that point there was no denying anything.

By that time I was not feeling the mood of the function so I decided to go back to the hotel, so that I can prepare for my journey of going back to Chicago because that is where my life was at and I was failing to find Mona in my search. when I got to the hotel I kept on thinking about Mandy and what I have done to her, this also reminded me about my little sister when she was young she used to rely on me and how I let her down on that day.

I cried that night until I feel asleep, I dreamed about mama again but this time she said “everything is going to be alright and remember that wealth is not important than your family”.

CHAPTER NINE: SHOCKING NEWS BUT WONDERFUL AT THE SAME TIME

The next morning I was ready to leave but my pride would not let me leave before apologizing to Mandy about my terrible mistake and doubting her innocence. So I went to the manager to ask for her address and telephone number, but sadly enough she was living in orphanage but moved when she got the job and stayed with friends and she does not have her contact number.

Well then I had already booked for my plane and I tried but could not succeed. so called a cab to come and pick me up and take me to the airport, my mind was already made up my flight was at 7:30 pm so everything was set and I was ready to leave what I came to do behind and go back to the future and become a new person Nora Shaun Wal and not Ms Muhambiya.

CHAPTER TEN: FINDING MONA AFTER 10 LONG HARD YEARS

It seems Elizabeth recognize something in me as well to my sister that we both had same necklace written the same thing. And she over had me talking to Shaun about me not finding Mona, then add things out and that Mona had no parents and she had a sister who was in mid 20’s. Elizabeth went to hotel to come and tell me about my little sister and she was too late she was told that I have already left the hotel.

But she never gave up she rushed to the airport. She finally caught me she told all about Mona and she told me that she also has the same necklace that I have and the colors of her necklace. Immediately we went back to look for but she would not want to listen because of what I did by accusing her for stealing my shoes. Apparently Mandy was Mona all along.

Things started to settle down when I called her by her name Mona and she was stunned and ask me how do I know her name because no one knows her name accept her and her family, so I told her that you right I know your name because our mother Garuna and father Welli know that name and only her bad sister Nora knows the name so we hugged and cried.

I told her that I came to find her and I am sorry for what happen 10 years ago and that I need her to be with me for the rest of our lives and I told her about the dreams that I was having, apparently she was also having the same dreams. I told her about my engagement and that I needed a family blessing.

Mona and I went back to Chicago, but with the intentions of coming back to Rwanda and rebuild our family house and use it for children with no parents.

Written By: Thandiswa Mvani (South Africa)

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On this funny America of the north

We climb the stairway for freedom, justice and equality

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